Tuesday, October 30 - Reality. Place one foot in front of the other and begin the day. I don’t want to, I can’t get out of bed. It’s a bad dream. It’s not real. It can’t be real. I want to hear his voice, I want to see him smile. I don’t want this. I have thanked God every day and especially this past year for ALL of life’s blessings. My beautiful children, my loving husband, a succesful career, good health - a wonderful life. Almost knowing that if I wasn’t grateful, didn’t give thanks enough, that it would be taken away. So I question why? I am angry. I want to blame, I want to be angry at those last to see him, to make them responsible. That would give me strength to face the day.

But it wasn’t anger that gave me strength. Today, it was the “Be Like Mike” entry, it was -”the Bible does not lie, “I will not leave you, nor foresake you” entry, it was the “he lives in all of us” entry…it was the very thing I thought I should take a break from that helped me through. It was the most generous, loving gift, it was you. It was all of you.

Your thoughts, your kind words of support, your love for Michael, it was the blog - the outlet for all of us. The place we gather strength. As I continued to read and for the remainder of the day, I regained strength. I carried hope and faith in my pocket, and a prayer in my heart.

Whatever the odds…Mike can do it. So can I.