Osbourn’s Homecoming - Emily is a senior
Saturday, October 27 - Osbourn’s Homecoming - Emily is a senior this year so it was important to make this day as normal as we could for her. I went to the hospital early, left around 11:30 to take Emily to the “let’s get pretty” appointments. Our first appointment was hair and about 15 minutes into it, Bobby calls with the MRI results. I was able to keep it together through the nail appointment but that was it. The release was like a volcano - I hear Emily “Mommy is having a heart attack” as she calls to Bobby for help. I am sorry Emily. I am so sorry. I’m better now. We are all struggling with the dark times of trying to cope with this drastic change in our lives, in Michael’s life. The missing piece is not what happened or why it happened, it’s Michael. What he means to me, what he means to you. Michael is the missing piece in all our lives, so we struggle with how to cope with the pain and the personal loss we feel.
Everyone talks about Michael’s strength…he is strong because of us, all of us. His friends, his family and we are strong because of him. He is the glue that binds us. We’re told that the part of his brain that works to wake him is injured and without healing, he will sleep. Michael may sleep, but I think we MUST continue to believe that safe in the arms of God, he is able to hear us.
Last night leaving the hospital, first song on the radio, Guns and Roses “Patience”
Shed a tear ’cause I’m missing you
I’m still alright to smile
I think about you every day now
…It’ll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we’ll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience…
Heading to the hospital, REM’s “The Great Beyond”
I’m breaking through
I’m bending spoons
I’m keeping flowers in full bloom
I’m looking for answers from the great beyond
On the IPOD, played for Michael - Matisyahu “Lord Raise Me Up”
Said I been gone for so long where my mind been at
wont you please wake me up wont you please bring me back
daydream fantasy and my mind went to sleep
eyes closed up from you with my heart heavy
so wont you please wake me up and shake me up
I believe that God was speaking to me where he knew I would look. Music. I heard you.
There are times I have no words, other times (like this) I need to share, to reach out to you. Mike’s friends - I love you. From the depth of my heart, I love you. The memories we share make us laugh, make us cry, help us cope. You are a band of brothers - to each other, a brother, to Michael - a brother, to Nathan and Emily - a brother. You embody my son.